Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 12

White Stripes are just so frickin good

Dead leaves and the dirty ground
when I know you're not around
shiny tops and soda pops
when I hear your lips make a sound

Thirty notes in the mailbox
will tell you that I'm coming home
and I think I'm gonna stick around
for a while so you're not alone

If you can hear a piano fall
you can hear me coming down the hall
if I could just hear your pretty voice
I don't think I need to see at all

Soft hair and a velvet tongue
I want to give you what you give to me
and every breath that is in your lungs
is a tiny little gift to me

I didn't feel so bad till the sun went down
then I come home
no one to wrap my arms around

Well any man with a microphone
can tell you what he loves the most
and you know why you love at all
if you're thinking of the holy ghost

Happy Birthday John

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are

afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to

all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance.

We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our

imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to

our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution

and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-

hearted vision of people who embrace life.”

― Happy Birthday John Lennon

Girly, I know, but fuck it right? Like Dawson's Creek is more badass...

It's Latin bitches

Serva me. Servabote. Serva me primus.

Latin Translation: Save me. I'll save you. Save me first.

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 11 (might be the best break up song ever)

Oh, no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you, my friend

And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away

So many people to love in my life
Why do I worry about one?
But'a you put the happi- in my -ness
You put the good times into my fun

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We've tried the goodbyes
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray

They say if you love somebody
Then you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say that time will make all this go away
But it's time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays

And once again, that rising sun is a droppin' on down
And once again, you, my friend, are nowhere to be found

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

You just walk away
Walk away
Walk away

Just walk on, walk on
Turn and head for the door
You just walk away

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 10 (this song is just so goddamn good, so is Ben Harper)

Yes indeed I'm, alone again
And here comes emptiness, crashing in
Its either love or hate, I can't find in between
'Cause I've been with witches and I've been with the queen


Wish there was something I, could say or do
I can resist anything but, the temptation from you
But I'd rather walk alone, than chase you around
I'd rather fall myself than let you, drag me on down

It wouldn't have worked out anyway
and now it's just another lonely day
hey, hey
Further along, we just may
But for now it's just another lonely day

Yesterday seems like a, life ago
Cause the one I loved today, I hardly know
You I held so close, in my heart oh dear
Grow further from me with every, falling tear

It wouldn't have worked out anyway
So now it's just another lonely day
hey, hey
Further along, we just may
But for now it's just another lonely day
For now its just another lonely day
hey, hey
For now its just another lonely day

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 9

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,


Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

Too bad. So sad.

"You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve better?"

"Believe it or not you are in complete control of how you treat me"

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 8

If you, if you could return
Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade

I’m sure I’m not being rude
But it’s just your attitude
It’s tearing me apart
It’s ruining everything

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn’t be so confused
And I wouldn’t feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger

You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 7

When something's dark
Let me shed a little light on it
When something's cold
Let me put a little fire on it
If something's old
I wanna put a bit of shine on it
When something's gone
I wanna fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

When something's broke
I wanna put a bit of fixin' on it
When something's bored
I wanna put a little excited on it
If something's low
I wanna put a little high on it
When something's lost
I wanna fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

When signals cross
I wanna put a little straight on it
If there's no love
I wanna try to love again

I'll say your prayers
I'll take your side
I'll find us a way to make light
I'll paint your grave with _________
This day could be our last lifetime

Hey, hey, hey!
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Fight to get it back again
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fight to get it back again

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 6

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes


And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no road
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles


Now I'm told that this life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
A broken heart and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on


And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

Love this friggin scene

BEN

Think they’ll take us back?

PETE

Yes. But I don’t know why. Do you ever

wonder how somebody could even like

you?

BEN

All the time, man. Like every day. I

wonder how you like me.

PETE

How can Debbie like me? She likes me.

I mean, she loves me. The biggest

problem in our marriage is that she

wants me around. She loves me so much

that she wants me around all the time.

That’s our biggest problem. And I

can’t even accept that? Uh, like that

upsets me?!

Ben sits up from the bed.

BEN

What?

PETE

She’s the one. She loves me.

BEN

You can’t believe...that people love

you? I love you, man! Debbie loves

you!

PETE

I don’t think I can accept her love.

There’s something wrong with me.

BEN

You can’t accept love?

PETE

I don’t know what it is.

BEN

Love? The most beautiful, shiny, warmy

thing in the world? You can’t accept

it?

PETE

I have to go to this other chair

PETE (cont’d)

Oh, this is a better energy.

BEN

You can’t accept pure love? You can’t

accept Debbie? She’s chosen to give

you her life. She’s picked you as her

life partner! But you play fantasy

baseball because you can’t accept her

love?

Ben BURPS.

BEN (cont’d)

Ugh. I could accept it, man. And

Debbie’s amazing, man. She’s cool and

she’s funny and she smells good and

she’s nice and her hair always looks

different. She’s too good for you,

man.

Pete shoves his hand in his mouth.

PETE

Tastes like a rainbow.

BEN

You’re disgusting. You’re an urchin.

And she busts your balls because

you’re a little bitch! You’re a filthy

bitch! And I’d bust your balls! Debbie

wants to give her life to you and

Alison doesn’t want to do that with

me. And it makes me sad all day. I

want to go home.

PETE

(with fist in mouth)

I want to go home, too

No wait, I want to keep it

In defense of Yoko

Now before everyone gets all up in arms about this, calm down peoples. I am entitled to my opinion. John Lennon, himself, admits that he used to be selfish and have anger problems and abuse women physically and emotionally. And then he met Yoko. And he grew and changed and was about love and peace. He wrote his best songs when he was with Yoko (Imagine anyone???). He made his most radical, important statements when he was with her. He couldn't write and sing songs about holding hands and twisting and shouting forever. He had to move on. He had to grow. He had to become the person he was always destined to be. He considered her like one of his limbs and grew to think that if she was apart from him, he felt incomplete. People can grow and change together. The general public always showed such a repulsion towards her because John left The Beatles. But it was time. The Beatles needed to end when they did. Things end when they are supposed to. And sometimes start again. They just wanted to be in love and do their thing. And people tearing down something like they had, is exactly what John Lennon was against. It was just love. For all its worth, in an all consuming nature, which is OK for people sometimes. In their case it was. If she was good enough for John, she's good enough for me! I have this photo hanging up in my room because they almost started to look alike after a while. They became one. A whole. It's up to remind me that there are all types of love out in the world. Mind blowing, life changing, inspirational love.

John Lennon's thoughts about Yoko:

"As usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot.”

“It wasn’t that she inspired the songs. She inspired me.”

"It takes time to get rid of all this garbage that I've been carrying around that was influencing the way I thought and the way I lived. It had a lot to do with Yoko, showing me that I was still possessed. I left physically when I fell in love with Yoko, but mentally it took the last ten years of struggling. I learned everything from her. ... It is a teacher-pupil relationship. That's what people don't understand. She's the teacher and I'm the pupil. I'm the famous one, the one who's supposed to know everything, but she's my teacher. She's taught me everything I f*cking know."

"We are both sensitive people and we were hurt a lot by it. I mean, we couldn't understand it. When you're in love, when somebody says something like, 'How can you be with that woman?' you say, 'What do you mean? I am with this goddess of love, the fulfilment of my whole life. Why are you saying this? Why do you want to throw a rock at her or punish me for being in love with her?' Our love helped us survive it, but some of it was pretty violent. There were a few times when we nearly went under, but we managed to survive it and here we are. [John looks up] Thank you, thank you, thank you."

"We haven't been apart for more than one hour in two years. Everything we do is together, and that's what gives us our strength."

"She's brought out the real me. And I get nervous and tense like anybody else but I'm more relaxed than I ever was, since I was a child, you know."

"Anybody who knows our history knows that we went through all hell together - through miscarriages and terrible times."

"I'd never met a woman I considered as intelligent as me. That sounds bigheaded, but every woman I met was either a dolly-chick, or a sort of screwed-up intellectual chick. And of course, in the field I was in, I didn't meet many intellectual people anyway. I always had this dream of meeting an artist, an artist girl who would be like me. And I thought it was a myth, but then I met Yoko and that was it."

"We've broken down a few barriers between us, which we had to do because we had two big egos. Two individual artists - and with love we overcame that."

"Before Yoko and I met, we were half a person. You know there's an old myth about people being half and the other half being in the sky, or in heaven or on the other side of the universe or a mirror image. But we are two halves, and together we're a whole."

"John and Yoko are like the wind. You can't see it, but when it passes the trees bend. You know, and that's what we do."

"That's part of our policy, is not to be taken seriously, because I think our opposition, whoever they may be, in all their manifest forms, don't know how to handle humor. You know, and we are humorous, we are, what are they, Laurel and Hardy. That's John and Yoko, and we stand a better chance under that guise, because all the serious people, like Martin Luther King, and Kennedy, and Gandhi, got shot."

"I've had the boyhood thing of being Elvis. Now I want to be with my best friend, and my best friend's my wife. Who could ask for anything more?"

"I'd like to live to a ripe old age, with Yoko only, you know. And I'm not afraid of dying. I don't know how it'd feel at the moment. But I'm prepared for death because I don't believe in it. I think it's just getting out of one car and getting into another."

"When [Yoko and I] got back together, we decided that this is our life. That having a baby was important to us, and that everything else was subsidiary to that, and therefore everything else had to be abandoned. I mean, abandonment gave us the fulfillment we were looking for and the space to breathe."

"I used to be cruel to my woman, and physically -- any woman. I was a hitter. I couldn't express myself and I hit. I fought men and I hit women. That is why I am always on about peace, you see. It is the most violent people who go for love and peace."

Everything's the opposite. But I sincerely believe in love and peace. I am a violent man who has learned not to be violent and regrets his violence. I will have to be a lot older before I can face in public how I treated women as a youngster”

"Why don't people believe us when we say we're simply in love?"

What do you want?

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."

"What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt."

"Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?"

"It's not that simple."

"What... do... you... want? What do you want."

" I have to go now. "

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 5

I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
Oh, we could start again

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
I can't feel it right now
I got all the right clothes to wear
I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
When you're with me

Divine Secret Sappiness

"I think it can best be said... The road to hell is paved with good intentions."
"Well, what about the road back? What's that paved with?"

"Humility."

"Did you get enough love in your life?"

"What's enough?"

Smart dude

"I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time."

Recurring dream

I only have one recurring dream. Since I was a kid. I'm underwater and keep trying to swim to the top but can't get there. I keep thinking my fingertips are going to touch the surface but they never make it and the light of the sky keeps getting further and further away no matter now hard I swim. I try to cry out but you can't make a significant noise underwater. I love the ocean. It's one of my favorite things in the world. I'm a strong swimmer and I don't fear it. But in my dream it swallows me up. I'm trying to kick and swim and scream and get to the top but it swallows me and defeats me and I get tired but keep trying to swim. And I then I wake up.

"When you're drowning, you don't say 'I would be incredibly pleased if someone would have the foresight to notice me drowning and come and help me,' you just scream." John Lennon

I never said it was gonna be pretty... This clip just fuckin rules

If you don't like Dawson's Creek and all the meaningful Pacey and Joey break up scenes, well we probably can't be friends

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 4

This is just a great song. Not every one has to have a meaning. Or does it? Wink (pointing to my eye)

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?

When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster