I have come to learn that there is a distinct possibility that I was meant for a unique life. I have come across a random arrangement of characters; some of whom I call friends and others I don't. More importantly, I think I have been destined to meet exceptionally interesting and unique people throughout my life. People with all different kinds of stories and backgrounds. The Island of Misfit Toys if they were all insanely different and intriguing. A plethora of polka dotted elephants and Charlie-in-the-boxes. I find myself surrounded by such strong personalities as I sit in admiration of their character. Each one could be described in a book. Crazy swirling stories around me that keep my head spinning and feet grounded. The more variety of different types of people you keep around you, the more rich your life becomes. If you have one type of friend, or hell even one type of enemy, frenemy, acquaintance, your life is destined to remain flat. Where is mine is forever shape shifting. I hope everyone has this chance that I have, to collect these people along the way as I build my own story painted with hilarity, irony and sentiment. I hope that people pay attention to other peoples stories, glories and fault...their everything. To have the ability to see people's authentic selves and to have the privilege of people wanting you to see that in them, is indescribable. When you open yourself up to peoples stories, everyones stories, you learn far more than you ever would from any solo adventure.
My life continues to be an adventure and is ever changing. I have had my fair share of different "great loves" as well. Some I'm still in touch with and some not. Some have gone onto some great adventures of their own. Some haven't. And we all choose our own paths. Some of them still love me. And some don't. For good reason. Haha. I will care about them all, in some way, forever. Some more than others. Such is life. I came to thinking about a conventional life today. A conventional job. Conventional hobbies. A conventional mind. Conventional relationships. Maybe none of which, are for me. I have been to some amazing weddings and know some incredible couples who have undying love for each other. And I sit in awe of them and respect them. I have had some love too. Some great love. Some bad love. Some in between love. And you have to have it all. To know and feel the difference. But maybe, you can have someone unconditionally love you forever, and not be married to them. Maybe never be married to them. Maybe not even be with them in a conventional sense. Love is not possession and it is not ownership. I will be an old elderly woman someday and know that I have someone out there who will love me forever in one of the most beautiful ways. Maybe we won't speak for twenty years or maybe we'll meet in another life. Maybe I'll move on and have the unconditional love of a husband and children one day. Maybe I'll stand still with somebody. Maybe I won't. But just because I am not living in a big house with a husband and children does not mean I haven't had some great loves. And I have been loved in really amazing ways by some really interesting people. Some of them will love me forever. Some in silence and some out loud. It is worth just as much as a "traditional life". When I am an elderly old woman at the end of my life, I will close my eyes, I will see all of these people in the back of my mind, all these characters in my book, and I will smile.
