You said it, old man

I'm starting to feel validated. I'm starting to feel at peace and like the universe maybe helped me dodge a bullet. And my bulletproof vest would consist of my friends, my family, and as it turns out the whole staff of people that I work with. I will allow others to feel angry for me and not waste the energy myself. I will continue to smile and have fun no matter who is trying to suck out my energy in the room. I will allow certain people to bury themselves with their own behavior (or lack there of) and continue to disrespect people as I sit back and be myself. It's hard for me to bite my tongue as my very best friends are now starting to be affected and disrespected, but I will sit back for now. Enough now. I will allow people who want to make a complete 180 as a person so quickly to continue to disappoint the others around me because this is perhaps how it was supposed to unfold. Maybe some people deserve it because they changed for the worst so quickly and need a reality check about their own issues and the things they can't handle properly. The things they are currently not handling properly or with any tact. I will allow some people to show up places unwelcome and uninvited with bad intentions and I will be unphased because I now can brush it off. And I will shake my head and brush it off while feeling bad and feeling concern for the other person. I will let them leave maybe feeling defeated and embarrassed and brushed to the side, as I once have. I will let the other people worry around me while I won't worry at all. Some people need time to move backwards but I will only move forward. Sitting back and just being myself works turns out, I just had to realize it. I will let some people show concern for how I am doing simply because the one person who was supposed to, does not. I will see people and things for what they really are, not what they could be. Potential means nothing without follow through. I will let others feels anger and disappointment for me and continue to lift me up, as I will continue to lift myself up and not let anyone take me, my smile, my time and my life for granted. Namaste bitches.

Facebook is a breeding ground for creeps

WELCOME to the new Myspace. What's with these new breed of guys waiting on facebook chat ready to pounce? The ones that linger on there for hours late at night hoping to have a promising conversation. They keep up a nerdy computer game and facebook chat at the same time just in case. Just in case their precious ego can be stroked. If we are not friends outside of facebook, we are not really friends. We will not form a closer friendship based out of facebook. Or how about the guys that scroll down the "People You May Know" list and try and friend as many un-obese females as they can? Are you trying to prove to yourself or to others that you matter to girls? Do you feel better? Do you feel like this is a subliminal pick up line that all these girls just accepted in your simple little brain? It just goes back to these blazing insecurities that boys have. I stress the words boys here. I think the population of creeps is rising because the insecurities of men in general are rising. Women are becoming stronger and more vocal by the day. We're taking over the power in sex (that was always), in a lot of workplaces, in emotional superiority, and in life in general. Men are becoming disposal to us for good reason: because they are doing this to themselves. And now they're scrambling. This scares the poo out of boys so why not creep on facebook to solidify your "manhood". Why make the effort to go to a bar or ask a girl on a date. Rejections on facebook are so much more sublte and easier to deal with and guys just can't deal these days. Facebook chat a girl and talk about your new bike, your workout routine, your fake sadness over a recent break up. Anything to get a humoring "lol" so you can feel better about yourself. Have fun scrolling down the "People You May Know" list and making some real connections.

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 3

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

"There is a light that never goes out"

"If you felt, even one shred of what I felt for you, then we wouldn't be standing here having this conversation"

"Men are destined to screw up the human race". One of my favorite scenes ever!

One of my favorite movie scenes. If only more men would man up and say that "freedom" and "not settling down" and "living their own life" really means to ALL of them: hooking up with more drunk chicks and waiting for their inevitable supermodel that they all supposedly deserve before they get too old. Avoid adulthood at all costs and you will feel like you had a much fuller life. That's the real fear right? It's not like we don't know it. Simply say: "It's not you, it's my inability to think with my brain and I'm just gonna go with being shallow and self-serving instead". We get that's what you mean. Don't dance around it. We got it, thanks. Don't humor us cause we've had it figured out for years. And when our friends say "You deserve better" we know they mean "I feel sorry for you they wanted to bang other people" or "you wasted time with another immature one, huh?" and we appreciate it cause that's the code of ethics. We know "experience" to most men means maybe a couple trips to the free clinic with a semi-triumphant but semi-gross feeling and getting drunk or high out of their goard multiple times to deal with their own inadequacies. We get the explaining you have to do to your friends and the "manhood" you have to prove to them. But guess what? The only actual MEN are the ones that cruise all past this because they are comfortable with themselves and don't answer to people, just themselves. Predictability is so boring and unoriginality is even worse. Men are missing out on actually being real men. They're avoiding some great things and REAL experiences because they are holding themselves back from real people and relationships. They are missing out on the only people that truly care about them and will wipe their asses for them when they're 90 and can't get off the couch. But blame the female for holding you back, it will make you feel better about yourself I promise. It's never about the right woman for a man because of this. It's only about right timing. They need the proper amount of time to get over themselves and their own ego and then whatever girl is there, she's "the one". That's why most guys get married exactly the same time around the rest of their friends. But they'll deny being impressionable. It's pack mentality. And I think this partly attributes to all the young divorces popping up out there. These boys need to face themselves before letting their sex become more and more simple minded. There are a few exceptions so I won't say "all men" before my married friends start to jump down my throat. But let me stress the emphasis on "few". Don't keep taking evolutionary steps back guys or females will undoubtedly start to run the world.... and that will be a big old mess. Cause that'd be real bad too. Yea I went there.

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 2

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

Music and alcohol seem to be the cure part 1

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

**You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives**

We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Proof of two very important things: That men PMS and that I am in fact Joey Potter... just not as badass

Feeling an odd connection to this whole scene. Shocker!

I'm not sentimental on facebook so I feel entitled here